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Teen Suicide

Once an avid blogger I am again offering my thoughts on my experiences. When a beloved young person and family member chooses suicide, the anguish of loss and endless questions erupt and only briefly subside as the moments, days, and months pass. Almost five months have rolled by since "the tragedy." For those left behind, the carnage of life, many facades, and losses of family structures/ lodging arrangements/ adverse alterations to income/requirements to use mental health professionals/ and dealing with the astounding amount of fallout form the backdrop of the getting out of bed and just putting one foot in front of the other become the normalized version of life. In previous blogs I wanted to express myself and even waxed poetic with an occassional surprisingly meaninful - and sometimes eloquent - turn of phrase. This blog will be short. With all that has transpired - from unbearable anguish, guilts and recriminations, and endless questions - I am breathtakingly lucky...

Delightful Surprise

 My years in hibernation after a marriage with a narcissist left me bruised and battered - my last blog post followed the creation of Life in the Aftermath of a Psychopath - where I submersed myself in more than day-to-day survival along with communication from friends and joys as a grandmother, I continued but with comfortably protective boundaries.   I quite suddenly Realize that I am more....once again. I have a few warm, bright, and cognizant friends from Facebook who have colored my thoughts and given such an indescribable boost to my soul and heart.  One such individual shared his new book of insight with me and inexplicably, my world opened.  Timing isn't everything but part of the equation.  The persistence of hopeful ideas and actual markers of the growth and enlightenment of others forever pushes the self-established barricades we create to our own evolution.  That's my wordy approach to saying, I thank everyone for "keeping on, keeping on!"...